Saturday, August 28, 2010


Ever since Jaymin was a baby I have believed that God had (at least) 4 babies for our family. Previously, I had the number 3 in my mind because that seemed like a good number. When Jaymin was born, I couldn't imagine that anyone would ever stop having babies, he was so beautiful and so precious and I loved everything about being a mama. Here I am, now, with three beautiful boys in my life. God is so good! The threads that He pulls together to create our family will never cease to amaze me.

These past several months have been interesting for me, to say the least. One of our birth moms came to us back in March and let us know that she is expecting a sibling to one of our boys. She wanted to parent this child, but was unsure. She let us know that she wanted us to parent if she felt unable to do it. We, of course, started to pray for this baby right away and praying that she would know what the best decision would be. She has allowed me to be a part of her pregnancy...going to ultrasounds and letting me know how things are going. While this has been difficult for me, it has also been a huge blessing. She is expecting a baby boy and he is brother to my boys no matter whose house he is raised in. While my boys don't come from my belly, the do come from my heart. I guess you CAN be "sort-of" pregnant after all. About a month ago I came to realize that she is planning to parent this little guy and I began sorting through about a jillion emotions, some of them not exactly "sort through-able". How will my heart NOT break? I'm not sure how God will do it, but I know he will keep my heart intact.

The roller coaster does not stop there, though. We got a call the other day from the same birth mom. She has a friend that is expecting and this friend is not planning to parent her child. Do we want to meet her? Well, the answer to that would be YES! We have never said no to a situation...only let us see what God does. What is God's plan for our family? We met this young woman a couple of days ago and things went well. She is expecting a baby girl in early December. Could this be the next color of thread brought into the tapestry of our lives by our loving God? I don't have the answer to that question...if you do, give me a head's up...ha ha! For now we pray and keep our hearts open for what God has for our lives. We pray and pray and pray....and we ask you to pray for both of these beautiful women and their precious little ones as well.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

sick at school

My poor Jaymin went to school this morning (his 7th full day) just fine, but just after he paid for his lunch he sat down to eat and promptly threw up! I'm sure that was fact I seem to remember being sick at school, not fun at all. Today was picture day....he has a black eye (thank you Jericho) and a loose tooth and he threw up...wonder if he'll ever forget his first picture day at school? He actually seems fine right I'm just watching to see what happens.

I happened to be watching a friends kids today and couldn't get ahold of someone to pick them up. Jaymin had to sit in the office on a chair with a trash can. What happened to the nurses office? When I used to get sick, we could go to the nurse and lay down on a bed with a curtain around it. Jaymin was on display for all to be grossed out about and worry that they are going to catch something from him. Times have changed a bit since I was in school...about a million years ago.

I'm trying to let go of the fact that he paid for his lunch and didn't actually get to eat it...times must be tight in our

Well, there is hope, he is acting VERY normal right now, for a 5 year old boy. I'll be praying that the other guys and myself will escape whatever it was that caused the incident.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

More than a year later...

Guess blogging isn't my strong point...There's so much to say that is so personal that blogging doesn't seem like the right thing to do. We've had a wonderful and VERY busy past 15 months or so. Eden is a big strong toddler now. Jaymin started school. Jericho is almost 4 years old and loves being the big boy at home while big brother is at school. They learn so much, so fast. My life has been taken over, completely, by bikes, band-aides, diapers and crumbs. It's a good thing for the smiles, laughs, giggles and kisses that come along with kids or we would all be crazy.

We are in the process of building a bigger house right now and walking God's intricately woven path for our lives. I am sometimes taken by surprise by the things that are put before me. Things I would never have imagined. There are times that I feel my heart is not strong enough to make it through the things that are asked of me. I was pondering that one morning at church...pondering through tears. I felt God drop these words into my heart..."Your heart isn't strong enough right now, but it will be by the time you are through. I am sufficient." Those words have encouraged me so much. I know things don't always turn out the way we hope...I know that with God, my hope will rise up and meet his plan for my life.

I'll try to be better...but some things are best left for a journal.