Tapestry

Ever since Jaymin was a baby I have believed that God had (at least) 4 babies for our family. Previously, I had the number 3 in my mind because that seemed like a good number. When Jaymin was born, I couldn't imagine that anyone would ever stop having babies, he was so beautiful and so precious and I loved everything about being a mama. Here I am, now, with three beautiful boys in my life. God is so good! The threads that He pulls together to create our family will never cease to amaze me.

These past several months have been interesting for me, to say the least. One of our birth moms came to us back in March and let us know that she is expecting a sibling to one of our boys. She wanted to parent this child, but was unsure. She let us know that she wanted us to parent if she felt unable to do it. We, of course, started to pray for this baby right away and praying that she would know what the best decision would be. She has allowed me to be a part of her pregnancy...going to ultrasounds and letting me know how things are going. While this has been difficult for me, it has also been a huge blessing. She is expecting a baby boy and he is brother to my boys no matter whose house he is raised in. While my boys don't come from my belly, the do come from my heart. I guess you CAN be "sort-of" pregnant after all. About a month ago I came to realize that she is planning to parent this little guy and I began sorting through about a jillion emotions, some of them not exactly "sort through-able". How will my heart NOT break? I'm not sure how God will do it, but I know he will keep my heart intact.

The roller coaster does not stop there, though. We got a call the other day from the same birth mom. She has a friend that is expecting and this friend is not planning to parent her child. Do we want to meet her? Well, the answer to that would be YES! We have never said no to a situation...only let us see what God does. What is God's plan for our family? We met this young woman a couple of days ago and things went well. She is expecting a baby girl in early December. Could this be the next color of thread brought into the tapestry of our lives by our loving God? I don't have the answer to that question...if you do, give me a head's up...ha ha! For now we pray and keep our hearts open for what God has for our lives. We pray and pray and pray....and we ask you to pray for both of these beautiful women and their precious little ones as well.